i am SO envious of people who can just walk up in a front of a room of people and just freely talk…

i am SO envious of people who can just walk up in a front of a room of people and just freely talk without being a bit of nervous. TEACH ME YOUR WAYS. i have a huge feeling that social anxiety just stems from insecurity. and tbh im insecure af. i doubt everything i do. i dont think im good at anything useful. and i feel dumb af a lot of the times. ive been trying to change my way of thinking about myself but 16 long years of reinforcing the idea that I am trash makes it super fucking hard. i hate myself lmao weak af.